Dear Buddy,

Reading your blog hurts me alot. Im a bad bestfriend. I've been neglecting you for the past 3 months since I'm with him. Usually you will come first in my life followed by my boyfriend but now, everything is him. I dont know why I always listening to him. What he wants me to do, I will definitely do. Is not that Im scared of him. Its just that I hate seeing his fuck up face that will end up argueing. Sigh!

Buddy...
I'm sorry for what I have done to our friendship. You still my bestest friend in my life. You are still the one that I love the most. No matter where I go or with him, you are still always in my mind. I will promise you that we can be like last time. Promise. I just need to knock some sense to him. But you see..... I cant do that by myself. You need to let your feelings out to him too. Let him know how you feel. Remember, he is your close friend too.

Sometimes I feel like I'm in between. I dont know what to do. I just want him to understand me. I just want him to let me do my part as a bestfriend too. He always told me friends are not important but I will reply,"No...Ernie is different.She is my lover.She is important to me."
Sob sob sob....
I just want him to understand me. Understand Us. He is the best boyfriend ever but he is the only guy that wants me to follow everything what he is doing.
I'm sorry..
Sorry..
I love you so much buddy. Love you and miss you alot. I will promise you that we can be like last time. Promise you. I'm sad for what I have done. I'm a bad bad bestfriend trying to be a good girlfriend not knowing that her buddy needs her. I'm sucks! I make my buddy down. I'm sorry. I will change.

Loves
I miss you too.